Mon Mar 2 02:32:59 CET 2009

I am certificated

Yeah! I've done a short test on the site of the German Telekom about some basics in German, English, IT stuff, maths and economics. And what should I say? Now I am certificated. :-)

Really nice this sheet of paper. I wonder what I could do with it. Well... let's see. ;-)


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Mon Nov 10 02:46:20 CET 2008

Weekend in Halle

Hello dark night - hello darling.
What a nice weekend. So much joy, so much fun... so much of both of us. I like that feeling to be with you, I like to hear your voice, I like to feel your skin next to mine, i like... you. - I love you.
But I don't know how to handle this feeling to be without you, to miss you so much. I miss you.

I hope you'll dream of me... I'll do.
I try to imagine how it felt to feel your lips onto mine...


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Sun Sep 28 13:18:02 CEST 2008

Breakpoint

Strange. Sometimes I wish that my life has got breakpoints. I wish that I can return to a previously declared position. I can hold and wait - do nothing - time stands still -
then go on. Go to another breakpoint. Take time you need, take time to think, take time to relax.

Why are our lives so fast? Why is everything so hectically? Why don't we have some time for ourselves?
It was nice to have this "one hour breakpoint" yesterday. There was nothing to do - only sit down and think - think and be sad.

Sad, because time flees. Nothing is like yesterday. I would hope that I have used my time intensely. But I don't think so. Time overtook me somehow. Can I rewind time? Can I spend more time with important things (important for me, for my life, not for buisness or 'cause I had to do it)?

I feel sad - sad and lonely.


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Thu Sep 18 21:23:07 CEST 2008

*hug*

Hugging is good medicine. It transfers energy, and gives the person hugged an emotional boost. You need four hugs a day for survival, eight for maintenance, and twelve for growth. A hug makes you feel good. The skin is the largest organ we have and it needs a great deal of care. A hug can cover a lot of skin and gives the message that you care. It is also a form of communication. It can say things you don't have words for. The nicest thing about a hug is that you usually can't give one without getting one.

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Mon Sep 8 19:21:24 CEST 2008

fish.png Majorca Holidays

After a few days I would like to write a little bit about my holidays on Majorca. I was there together with my girlfriend for 7 days. We travelled through the island and visited some beautiful parts.

Our start point was the airport Berlin-Tegel. We flew via Air Berlin. It's interesting that this airline flies over 380 times to Palma de Mallorca per week.

We visited for example the Coves del Drac, Botanicactus, La Seu (Cathedral located in Palma) and many more. We also drove a lot per bus across the island and per railway from Palma to Soller. We saw a lot of orange and olive trees.

We've got a nice hotel in Cala d'Or. It was small, clean and awesome. In the small town were a lot of restaurants and souvenir shops.


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Sat Aug 16 15:39:54 CEST 2008

Believing

Believing: Who believes in me? Who trusts in me? Anybody?

Sometimes I don't know where I should go - what to do next. Sometimes I feel alone. Why cannot anybody show me the right way?


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Sun Jul 27 22:23:04 CEST 2008

Return to tomorrow

Can somebody please show me the return button of life? Somehow I would like to skip my current life and return to the beginning. Maybe I would do some things again, but maybe I would change something.

Somehow I lost my priorities. Somehow I don't know what is importand and what isn't. Somehow I lost myself.
Is a passed exam important? Friendship? Realtionship? Education? Joy? Fun? Tomorrow could change everything. What should I do today if there wouldn't be a tomorrow? Should I learn? Should I go out and enjoy the nature? Feel the world? Meet some friends? What?

There will be tomorrow. There will be tomorrow almost always. Why should I take time to do joyfull things? Why should I wait until tomorrow? Why shouldn't I wait?

Will be tomorrow the same if we take our time to do useful things or would it change if we waste it with hanging around? What if we change? What is if the world around us changed? Will we ever notice?

It is a strange feeling. Some time ago I've got fears. Now there are only empty feelings. My head is empty.

Tomorrow is a different day. (I'm not ready.)


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Sat May 3 13:24:15 CEST 2008

Sunset

Yesterday on the way home I had a look at a wonderful sunset. It was like magic. It was a great feeling to look into this red light.

Sometimes it couldn't get better. And sometimes, it gets better. I hate the raining days if I can have more of these special days.
I miss you, darling.


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Sun Aug 19 17:10:22 CEST 2007

heart.png Being with you

(Written today 01:17 am)

When I am with you everything feels so right. I am so lucky with you. When we're together it feels like the time's standing still. It feels so good to lie in your arms. Your skin is so tenderly and your lips so softly.

But now I miss you totally. I feel a little bit alone. In my dreams I am with you.

The only thing I ever wanted was to find a girl like you. The only thing I want now, is to hold you in my arms and protect us from the things beside us. The important thing is that I love you and I'll never let you go. I love you so much. Please trust me and have got trust in us. We can make everything possible. We can hold us together. We can love us.

Kiss.


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Sun Jun 10 21:32:15 CEST 2007

Importance

trust / truth / honesty / to be understood
time
eduction / love / freedom / knowledge
social contacts / joy / fun
the sun in your heart / positive feelings and emotions

This list isn't sorted in any order. I had only another try to list some of the really important things for me, but I also know that I did it several times in the past.


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Sat May 5 02:31:00 CEST 2007

Fears and Importance

Yesterday and today I thought a lot of importance. What is important to us? Sure the realistic people could answer: oxygen, food, drings, ..., society, nature, ... work, money - maybe a relationship, a house/flat, childrens. What else could be important? Joy, fun, friends, parties, music, books, movies, entertainment...

I believe the list could be infinite. But what is really important to me? There are a few things I guess: friendship, love, help, freedom (maybe this list could become infinite, too, if I thought longer about it). So if I think of my life like the sum of my important things every thing there is as important as the other ones. But what will happen if suddenly one becomes more important than the others? Are the others then really less important?

If you have got fun in doing something or if you feel that something is right (in a special moment) why shouldn't you do this just because you think it could get too import while doing this? Sure there could be fear about the importance of something. But it's a pitty if there are only fears in the end and no joy, no fun, no other important things.

I still don't believe that my life is only the sum of things. There are still emotions, feelings, dreams and much more. I think everything is important but sure every importance can differ in priority.
It's always important to see the people behind those facts. They have got lives, too, maybe different point of views and different hopes and fears but you should respect their opinions nevertheless.

Don't let fear control our lives.


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Tue Apr 3 18:31:59 CEST 2007

Fears and Present

Sometimes there is fear - there is anger - there is hope - there is optimism - there is disappointment - there are wishes, there are dreams - there is reality.

Our life includes such situations, such feelings, such... ways of thinking. But isn't there more? Isn't it worth to live for more? For more positive feelings, for more positive situations, for more.... more life! More fun. More joy. More time where we can be happy together. More sunny days.

Yes, I believe that it is worth to live for that. But there are still the negative emotions - there is still fear. You shouldn't let fear be the central point of your life. Those situations where you have got fear for are those situations that will definitly happen when you let fear control your life.

There is only one way where everything will go to if you let fear control you - into nothing. Into the end. Into death. ...


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Mon Apr 2 22:11:52 CEST 2007

clock.png Stopping the time

Sometimes I've got the wish to know what currently happens everywhere else. I know that this is impossible. And I know that this is not necessary. Because, simply, you cannot stop the time. You cannot stop the inevitability.

You cannot change the past. And sometimes you even cannot change the present. All what you need is trust. Trust in yourself, trust in the time,..., trust in everybody else.

Sometimes it's hard to trust in time. You don't know where you'll go, but you know where you come from. There will be hope sometimes, but there will be much more fear the other times. You have to live with that...


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Sat Mar 10 19:17:26 CET 2007

To be the best

These days I thought a little bit about the meaning of life. Are we only here to be the best? To be prosper? To have got success?
What do we need there for? How do you judge me? What do you need there for? Are only my results important to judge me?

I think there is much more. I've done a lot of work at the same time I should have done some other important things. Okay, that's my problem -- but am I a worse guy - only because those facts?
I know that a lot of things went some how wrong in the last months, but I cannot change the past (I know that's obviously).

I am not that kind of human beeing that only works for himself/herself. Almost always I try to help some parts of the society or some other projects or ... what ever you call them.
I also know that sometimes I lose a lot of time while relaxing or only sitting there and think about my life. But those actions are also important for human beeins, I believe.

I know that I have to live with my decissions, with my failures, with my actions -- but I also know that I have to do some things right, to pass them.
I am only as good as people judge me. Not my results are important, but the work I've done beside the work I was supposed to do. I hope somebody will notice that, and that at sometime people will care about those facts also.

Have also a look at xkcd 230 about this topic. :-)


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Mon Feb 12 12:54:30 CET 2007

heart.png Life 2.0

Long time ago I wasn't sure about how to write these lines. What should I tell the world about my luck? What should I write at all?
But now I think it's enough to tell you that I've booted Life 2.0 and that I've found a wonderful girlfriend.
I'm really happy now. :-)


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